Obsessed

I can't stop thinking about getting pregnant. I'm already anxious to take a test, and I won't even be ovulating for over two weeks. This is crazy. If I'm this bad now, how insane will it be having to wait another full long drawn out week after ovulation?!? As I type this I realize it is probably super annoying and potentially even mildly offensive to anyone who has experienced trying for a baby and not having immediate success. And I'm aware that I may not have immediate success. I don't handle it well at all when there is something that is out of my control. And, to an extent, this totally is out of my control. This is going to be a long 3 weeks. Maybe longer than that. Wow. This is intense. I just can't believe the time is finally here. I've been waiting for over a year for this trip to get here, for this specific purpose. While I was waiting, sure, I thought about how much I wanted another baby. But that was a different kind of waiting because I knew we had to get through this trip first. Now this trip is 4 days away. The time is here, the ovulation is being tracked, I just reeeeeeeally want to get this show on the road!!!